Why me??

Funny title eh??....well...today...man it has been one of the most fucked up days..nothin to do..nothin to write..nothin to watch..jus sittin all alone in my house starin at my own self..wonderin at what i was good at...i knew this was jus not my day...only yesterday i got the good news that we had no col due to the BUNTH...i was jumpin with joy runnin all over the place...wow that was a relief..NO ED exam..wooopey!!...only yesterday evenin i stayed back after col got over with a good intention to teach my fella class mates some ed...but!!..walah!!..v did the usual gig..went out for a walk outside the campus..chatted..one of my classmates,RAghu bought a new cel fone..it was a nokia 6080..[geezzz..i still wonder wat all these weird numbers indicate..i mean y is it 1100,1108,2100,1600!! :o]..

It was a camera mobile..and that was all i wanted..i dunno y but i love takin pics wit such gadgets..like i remember the day Abi bought his new MOTO RAZR V3i...it was so sexy!!...kamal had used the same thing in VV....it looked black,slick..muah..it was perfect..from day one i started takin weird pics of myself,scenery,my foot,mirror images...so i went crazee again takin pics wit this new nokia mobile..then v left college..v as in the day scholars..me das n sarvo went to eat some kaalan..but unfortunately it was all over..but sarvo n das..all they did was type type and type wit their cel fones..then i wondered at wat a nuisance they were..jus imagine..u are tellin somebody sumthin and he looks at u straight in the eye..u believe he is listenin to you and u go on and on..all of a sudden he looks at u n asks "YENNADA SONNAE??"..AArrgghh..that so pisses everyone off!!...well anyways comin bac to the present..i was online the whole of yesterday night..i talked to vais[tell u more abt her later] after a long time..then i turned in at sumtime around 1...

The next day(i.e)today..i woke up at 9..lazy lazy bum!!...mom had already left for office..i was hopin to catch up wit parti n hav fun the whole day...but out of the blue that fella had col..!! sad..so i turned bac to Abi..but he didn sound too NICe today mornin..so i let him brood over i didn kno wat..i sat down n started thinkin of some way to burn time... watched the australia-new zealand match..simply stunnin..appram i blogged took bath n ate..after all this i hoped Abi would b free..but he said he was still busy n promised he'd call bac..but never did!!..anyways i was callin evryone i knew..ranj phone line was busy..parti was still not bac from col..VK was busy too...wow..MISERABLE...i was sittin at home all alone..had nothin to do..nothin to write..i was in no mood to learn anythin!!..BORED

I tried to watch tv but it was all full of idiotic crap...SS music was hostin some crap lottery shit!!..numbers all over the place..thoo...enna waste..rite now its 5 o clock..and i still cant get my mind to do anythin...parti is still not bac from col...

But i learned one thing today..Nothin goes my way without parti..both of us share the same interests..be it hangin out playin pool..or anythin..one holiday-he is not here i am pissed to the core...but its really irritatin to sit all alone in the house havin nothin to do..sory ppl..i am jus bloggin cos i had nothin to do!!..NOTHIN TO DO..screw this bull shit BUNTH..[:(]

College Gimmicks.....

Hey ppl...Long time since i blogged..almost a week..thats cos of these stupid interns...ARRRGGGghhhh...find no time for anythin these days...so..College is gettin better by the minute...U feel more homely as days pass by..like i remember the first day of college...i was simply scared..i didn know the place..i was starin at somethin unusual...there were people all around me..and many seniors pissed me off!!..[:P]..Everything seemed so NEW..i was used to hangin out at a place i knew real well...I went to the canteen the first day..It was INSANE...guys n gals swarmin the place chattin and everythin...everyone seemed to know what they were doin and where to go..i felt puny and stupid...i knew very few people there...Shrey was talkin to his school seniors treatin them..i was standin in the middle of the canteen completely LOST..Scared again..scared cos i was very unfamiliar at all this..But i had to sit thro for another 4 years..so i told myself,"Stop complainin fool..its YOUR college..ROCK ON!!"....From then on it has been no turning back...In my previous posts i would have mentioned or hinted about days i have hated college..all that is BULL SHIT..I LOVE college....INFACT i love evrythin about it..so...I would like you guys to know some people who make college fun and everythin...

SHREY:
The only guy in the college to whom i can talk in english..talk about rock music..Swear at..Be sweared back at..its always fun with shrey around...But not always..cos he becomes a maniac durin interns[Padipaali effect katvaan... :P]....But he is one of those perfectly sensible,logical guys around..of course we freak out in col but otherwise..Shrey is logically CRAZY.. :D

SARVO aka SARAVANA:
Seriyaana pannadai...[:P]..on day one i saw this fella i knew it was fun all over...EJJATLY..very cool-headed..No.1 in ootifyin everyone...Easy on life..Me and him and loads of other guys hang out after col and talk Vetti Nyayam..a chance to know all of em better..Cell phone lai soora kadalai poduvan!!..But its always fun with him around!!..SARVO is
studious fella too..solves SFM sums like mad!!....Funk ellam VECHIRUNTHAAN..paavam seniors asked him to get rid of it!![:P]..anyways SARVO is jus one of em who will be there for you..
VINOD aka VINO:
More easily known as DIVYA DIVYA...he he ..lol...very different..typical carmel garden produce..slick hair style..he is the only one whom i have known to have a perfectly super love life..And he boasts of it too..panni..all rounda paatha nallavan...but KD..he is mostly the centre of interest when it comes to ootifyin..VINO is ooma kusumbhan..My bud when it comes to cuttin class..illatiyum ivan en nalla friend..MUTHU aka AKV:
the day i met him in knew he was ROWDI..lol..i was wrong..both of us share an interest for ARUVAL and BLOODSHED..!![:P]..Very openly critical especially about gals..sema gethu attitude..me,sarvo and muthu screw Vino every evenin..the four of us form an integral day scholar gang in class...Muthu is serious when it comes to learnin and puts in loads a effort...MUTHU is COOL..to the core..
SRIRAM aka SOAP SRI:
Comedy king of our class....he can compete with the likes of Vadivelu when it comes to fun...no mercy ..teachers aa irunthaalum naana irunthaalaam ooti thalleeruvaan....he is always there for fun n frolic..Masti attitude...he is the No.1 kadalai in class..not bad for someone who has been in boys school all his life!!..[:P]..SRI is SENSATIONALLY stupid!!..
RAKESH and VASANTH BALAJI:
Comedy Gundans of our class..Rakesh is freak..very friendly...very talkative and very funny...me and him take the same col bus..Vetti kadhai sight seein ellam sernthu pannuvom along with SABARi[IT friend].....we were once caught by out tutor DSk fer commentin and enactin his gimmicks rite in front of him...athun GETHU thaane!!..And vasanth balaji is WAY different from the lot..me and him were in the same polling booth for election duty...nalla body builder..girls piss him off!!..but nice to hang out wit..
Ok...this list does not end here..ill tell u more n more guys in the forthcomin posts..ippothakki ithu jaasthi...CHOW..

Bliss in piss

Ok..firstly this post might contain some words that might not sound too pleasant to the ear..but it is funny!![ lol..i like showin off :P ]..but seriously dont curse me after readin this.post...I was goin mad writin poems on everythin that came to my mind..piss..!!!..no offence guys..i am a lil bit crazy i guess...I present to you BLISS IN PISS:

I had this thing on my mind,
For a very very long time,
Why aint nobody wanna write,
Any shit about our own shit..

When you wake up every mornin,
The beer makes your head go spinnin,
You know you wanna unwind,
All you gotta do is free your mind..

Hmmm..You keep thinkin,
"Which can help me attain??
The freshness of the mornin flowers..
And the energy of the rooster"..

Your search ends here,
Hey..have no fear,
You can only find bliss,
When you let out your piss..

The first thing every mornin,
Is to quit all your mournin,
Bring your pants down at once,
N piss like you know no bounds!!

You slowly slide your zip,
N you gotta let her rip,
Piss off fast n hot,
Coz you aint got another shot...

Oh!it feels so fine,
When it comes out like a line,
You jus quit your flappin,
And let the piss do the talkin..

When you let it all out,
You ll feel so fine,
You piss the shit out,
You wont have to cry..

Never forget to piss yo,
Or you'll turn into a psycho,
Learn to pull your zip down,
Or your wet pants could bring a frown..

Piss like a pro,
Always do it down and low,
Know the basics of this spree,
Its also known as pee!!

Uh hu..i aint kiddin,
Finish pissin in the mornin,
You know you done it great,
Coz there cant be no mistake..

The feelin when you are done pissin,
Its sinkin..activatin your brain..
Whenever you do it,
Wherever yo do it,
When you done pissin,
Remenber to keep flushin..

So there you have it,
A poem on pissin and how,
If you aint a freak my friend,
You would think im insane!!.. :D

Ok...i know i know..GROUUSEEEEEE... :P lol..i find it funny..

The love i have for you..

Hey ppl..TOOOOooo much posts in a matter of three days eh!!...well this is jus another rap-poem..the theme:LOVE..actually guess when i came up wit this...fridays were special..cos we got two hours of computer programming lab..i got a chance to show of my skills at windows and C...(ellam RAMAMOORTY sir thantha trainin lol)..anyways i was bored the other day..i finished the exercises and was simply ,messin wit the machine..then i decided to write somethin and this is wat it looked like:

I have learned to,
Live without you,
Our love was so true,
But you never gave a clue,
That you were going to,
Go far away from the truth..

That you do love me,
That you do yearn for me,
That you do want me to be free,
But the fact is,
You never admit your love to me..

I have not been so well,
Since the day i met you,
Its been like livin in hell,
If i dont get to see you,
If i dont get top feel you,
If i dont get to love you..

Now jus listen to me,
Give that love back to me,
Show me the way to harmony,
Help me loose my purity,
Make me yell in anxiety,
Dont throw me at reality,
That you will never ever love me..

I have sacrificed myself,
To the beauty of your soul,
Dont you think i deserve,
The love i lost back home,
So please tell me the fact,
Am i the one or not,
Please tell the world the truth,
Am i the one you sought..

The love that i gave you,
Is pure and very true,
My heart is all in blue,
So what you gonna do,
I am not here to bother you,
I jus wanna know the truth,
Am i the one or not,
Do i have a shot or not??

Because i am the one,
Your very own love,
because i am the one,
Your very lone soul,
Because i am the one,
Your love for all the heart..

Ithula thrill enna na computer miss saw this poem...she asked me what it was ..but nan MALUPEETEN..then i had to come another day and take a copy of the poem on a pen drive..orey tension..but comp lab was always fun..durin the first couple of classes we were asked to do MSword..i thought that was stupid..so i took my mp3 along wit the data cable..when miss was not lookin i plugged it into the machine and transferred the songs..since we went to the language lab the pc's had head fones..cool eh??..so i switched to vertigo(my then favorite song)..alex thomas my friend was sittin near me..i was so into the song ..i was air guitarin of course..but the i got too involved and i shouted"dei alex..ippo guitar kelu..it goes naaa.naaaa.naa..."...i shouted my ass off!!..the whole class was lookin at me..miss asked what i was doin..again malupeeten..but that was one embarrassing moment..phew..COL IS FUN AINT IT??

Nerds..eeewwwww

He he..u get the thing...as soon as i came into college i knew all the people would be free of worry after all the hectic preparations for the public exams..But i didn give my mom what she wanted..i disappointed my teachers,grand ma,dad mom,bro..all of em wanted me to study hard..but VASANTH never listens does he!!... so after gettin into col i was only hopin to have fun...i was hopin that atleast now all students would take a break and chill in college..but what i was in store for!!..O.M.G..all the ppl in my class were nerds..ok atleast all of em sittin in the first three benches..i was pissed wit em..u kno..finishin records,scorin marks,completin all assignments..eeewww...i guess all these people kno is to learn write..learn write..ellam waste pasangha..this is wat i hav got to say about them.(P.S:i dont think this post is even worth a read)

My class feels so great,
The aura never fades,
But sometimes its not the same,
Because of some nut-cracked cases..

Screw em,Screw em,
Screw all those nerds,
Scorin marks,causin mayhem,
A big sshhhh.. to all of them..

To hell wit those creatures,
I hate em to the core,
Screwed up for life,
They make me say bad stuff,
Stuff which i never meant at all,
Coz i feel so puffed up,
To kick their ass like a brute!!..

I never meant no harm,
But they make my anger burn,
Like im a stupid guy,
Coz im a fucked up lie!!

Screw em,Screw em,
Screw all those nerds,
I puke at seein them,
They make me loose my cool,
Gettin on my nerves,
You'll regret it,yes you will,
Im a bad ass man,
I dont forgive this clan,
The group of screwed up nerds..

Il tell u wat..this is like the LOUSIEST post i hav ever done..

Death is all i ask..

Hey..maybe this title sounds stupid n creepy..or maybe its jus another piece of stupid 'rap-poetry' (i like callin my chef-d'oeuvres this way!! lol)..this poem came durin my intital days of col...well i wasn too angry or pissed or somethin but this death and anger and frustrations thingys were always in my head!!..so comes DEATH IS ALL I ASK :

Visons creep my head,
Disturbin my brain,
My senses dont listen to me,
They seem to wayward now,
Interruptin my existence,
I hear no sound of love,
The walls feel cold and dark,
I cant seem to get enough,
Aaah..i feel so cursed,
My state is so beserk,
My head is gonna blow,
To pieces right now,
I cant comprehend it,
Blah-blahs that i hear,
My senses seem so blanked,
By the vision of hell's trance,
Aaah..i feel so broken,
Drained of all good,
I feel so lame,
The point i turn insane,
I feel so left alone,
T o wander back home...

All i see is darkness,
Enveloping my hard sadness,
A steam of rage so big,
To turn my world to dust...

Staring at the gates of hell,
Death seems so close by,
I try to let out a yell,
But no one to say goodbye,
A stone wall across me,
Restrictin my ecstasy,
The dearth of life is gone,
Im goin crazy all along..

The journey aint so great,
I tyr but their is no escape,
Hallucinations in my mind,
Keep comin back time after time..

Starin at the demon's face,
My existence,a big mistake,
Its time i died a death,
That no one could digest,
Thorns prickin at my feet,
Blood curlin underneath,
Red roses dont look at me,
Coz im a bad misery,
An omen is what i am,
Bad happenings when i come,
The crowd is afraid of me,
A satan in reality..

My life is comin to a close,
A life i wanna dispose,
So death,I welcome wit a hug,
Death can ease all the pain,
Death can cause all the change,
Death is scribbled all over my face,
Death is not what i hate,
I know but i ask nonetheless,
Gimme death and nothing less..

So...i guess i used the words like hell and satan while referrin to death just to bring out some powerful emotion shit to this thing..but personally..i think its REAL FUNNY!!..

Lost MYself...

Er...my name..VASANTH..evalo azhagaana peru...till school i stayed unique..like only very few people in the whole school were named VASANTH..i was real happy..but O.M.G...i am in college
n guess how many vasanths in my class!!..freakin 4!!..4!!..n if u include the first yr guy in mech there are 5 in total...i was so taken aback..wateva..the point is i hav LOST MY IDENTITY..so i blame below..

These days just seem so long,
Even for the big and strong,
My life is down like a pile of trash,
It takes some time to clear this bash,
Loneliness creeps all over me,
Making me lose my identity,
Stopping my dance of sanity,
Hell is booming my clarity..

I have lost myself,
In the deep dark woods,
No one to hear me out,
To see me through to the end,
I have lost myself,
Now im crying out loud,
I have lost myself,
Lost myself..

All the pain groomin inside me,
Waitin to blast out at the sea,
All the crap misery within me,
Loomin for a lowly chance to reap,
Reap into something,
A monster in the mournin,
Suicide does seem so sweet,
Its the only way to peace..

I have lost myself,
In protrudin pain,
Tryin hard to escape,
From this endless rowdy maze,
I have lost myself,
Now im cryin out loud,
I have lost myself,
Lost myself..

it happens a lot..like when one vasanth is called for 4 of em stand up confused to who they r referrin to..its completely irritatin if u see it from my perspective..boo hoo...anyways i always try to stay the best n the wackiest of em all...VASANTH..i love u!!.. [:P]..1000 lai oru vasanth paathurukken..ok..100 lai oru vasanth na kooda ok..but rite now..im 1 in 4 ppl!!..like im ONE-QUARTER !!..boo hoo again.. :(

To hell with Saints

Hi folks...i jus love to SWEAR...only in english but tamil crap creeps up now and then...i think swearin is the best way to let out all the anger,frustration and everythin inside ur head...i apologise to all those who dont find this below verses not so SWEET to the ear.. [:P]..of course its not a crime to swear.. everyone does..my friends,mom,zidane,kurt cobain,sachin,...evryone u know does it...so here goes nothin..

Saints of the earth,
Its time you woke,
The world is drown,
In a mystic frown,
It needs your help,
To stand up hell,
Just make it out here..

Everyone is so lame,
Turning f***in insane,
I cant take it anymore,
Kill em all bastards..

But You dont listen,
The Saints are silent,
Everyone is losin it,
And you dont give a shit,
The saints are busy,
No time for reality,
Dont give a fuck to destiny,
The future..a pile of shit..

Screw you morons,
You aint cool,
Im pissed with your ways,
I hate it and i puke,
Its me here now,
ALL alone,no hope,
Life aint sweet,
When the saints dont weep...

ok..no offence..i DO SWEAR DONT I??.. :D..hmm..anyways thats me..but i use the f word a lot..tryin to stop it but jus cant seem to..i have pissed people of sumtimes..but i jus cant help it...k..until next time..

Swollen Mind..

So..i came up wit this thing when i was thinkin..yeah the very basic stupid thing which all humans do..if only we didn have the ability to think..man no Einstein,no Newton,no SHARAN[:P],no Eletricity,no crap OPTICS in physics..but still the human mind is the most complicated thing that can ever be..so i thought why ot write sumthin abt it..
P.S:Ideal for No-Brainers too(includin me!!)

Swollen mind,
Doesnt feel so fine,
Hasnt got no break,
It aint a piece of cake..

Swollen mind,
Workin all the time,
Stuck up in a place,
No light,no escape..

Swollen mind,
Knows how to lie,
It goes left and right,
Mumbled maze,all fake..

Swollen mind,
Aint got no life,
Trapped in my head,
For a cursed shed..

Swollen mind,
No place to hide,
Work all day,
Work all night..

Swollen mind,
Every chance to shine,
The mute hero inside,
Freak Einstein's mind..

Swollen mind,
Cries out and whines,
But deaf to the one,
Who cares least now..

Swollen mind,
I wish,i pray,
If at all one day,
You turn me insane,
Then swollen mind,
Its time for you,
To Rest In Peace,
Always in my mind..


hmmm...i know its kinda not too impressive. cos i tried to write this poem..its actually like this..i had the word swollen mind stuck up in my head..i didn kno wat i had to do..so i sat down n tried hard for thie poem to come out..goes to show that if u sit n try to create poerty it doesn come..write poems only when it comes straight from the heart..adieu

Turning Point

HMMM...there are some days when i get angry for no particular reason..its like when i see a bunch of girls laughin for nothin i loose my cool..!!..sometimes i get pissed cos i sweat a lot!!..Unwanted blame shifted on somethin or someone..but anyways the below poem was jus one of those instances..here goes nothin..

Its the start of all prep talks,
Time to wear the same stinky socks,
Used to be such a perfect crop,
Now its high time i forgot,
The pain that you drive through me,
All the way all around,was so extreme,
It made me cry for the love that ceased,
Now i sing a solo rhyme,Ma life aint sweet...

Buried deep inside me,
Your face comes back now and then,
But for all that you did to me,
All i have done is repent,
Shallow seas encrypt my vision,
A deep dark hole full of bloody toxication,
The love i gave you then,all mistaken,
Now you have cursed me,
I.m a nomad who aint so neat...

wel..if u are regularly readin my blog ull prolly know that i qite often use the words aint life seet etc etc. a lot in my 'poems'..well i am not too good at vocablary(unlike nith.. :P)..in this poem i have blamed some gal..like i already said i blame people for nothin..another thing is that im short tempered..ill tell u abt it in my sucessive posts..its a big thing..so until next time..Stay the same and dont ever blame!! [(punch dialougue mathiri irukkulae ... :D)]

When lust plays out..

Ok..i was was real bored in class the other day..chemistry miss was makin me yawn like hell..i was tellin myself.."dai vasanth..thoonghathae..yenthiri..aargh"...but miss was not helpin stuff..naan nalla payan vera peru eduthuten miss kitta..so i had to listen no matter wat...and the best way to ACT like u are listenin is to take notes...well i seriously wrote sumthin..here it is..

Could you please shut the door??
Can you lie down on the floor??
Its time we made some love;
With a lot of lust and hope..

Can you make this night at home??
A sparkling one..for im alone..
You've made me yearn for the love..
Now its time you showed me how..

Can you turn me real insane??
Can you cry out loud and blame??
Cos i can feel the aura waitin..
To explode down to smitherins..

Wo ho ho..I feel all alone,
Break me down,with the might you hold,
Wo ho ho..I feel so strong,
So lets turn it on,but not for long..

Its only me and you tonight,
Please switch off the freakin lights,
Enough with all the fights,
Lets make love here tonight....

So...u can call it a sorta song i guess..i plannin to learn the guitar some day and start my own band...shrey will be the base guitarist..sharan the keypad guy..shiv the drummer..and i the lead singer along wit ashish and ashwyn!!.. :P ...hey its not a crime to DREAM now is it??..

Frustrations Overboard

Ok...this seemed logical to me..after the completely idiotic start to the blog its time i put sumthin worth readin...ok this poem i wrote when college began...there is a whole freakin story behind this..but ill get to that later.. its the day we got our id cars from college..the day i showed it to some people in my class..the day i was completely pissed..but its thing of the past..anyways here goes nothin..

all i meant was good
but they make me feel bad
i hav no time to relax
cos they r kickin ma big ass
i feel so lonely these days
no one to hear me sing
the world does seem to care
about my past n all that crap

i hav tried to find
the reason for my crime
but i feel helpless tonite
and i feel i wanna cry
i jus want to set this right
the black mark on my file
but the ways its been till date
oh frustratin ma headache

i feel so fucked up
my life has no huff-puff
my head aint all that great
its mournin my mistake
the mistake i seem to do
and yet i hav no clue
the mistake that stays too tight
the mistake of ma life

i feel so insane
but i jus cant explain
its all in ma brain
in a mixed n moulded state
i try to make my mark these days
but its all gone down the drain
"its not my fault" i cry out hard
but no one hear reads ma thoughts

ma sleep is all messed up
thinking hard to make it work
ma life is so fucked up
I jus wanna spice it up
I dont blame those around me
Its me,at the peak of insanity
I aint got no love no peace
the thought stays like a disease
it hurts inside to know
there’s no one to help me grow
but how come I don’t know
the big mistake I did
how come I don’t know


ok i kno its big..but its worth the read...i actually got the inspiration to write this poem from the song by creed..MY OWN PRISON...thats a really good meaningful song..of course my poem aint nowhere near it..but it sorta set the mood for me to write it..ok enough..ill LAMENT in the next post.. Ok..my blah-blah ends here..

Er..My first one

YEAH...so its officially the day it came out.Man it took me such a long time to bring it out...Finally my first post..all thanks to the following ppl:
1.Shrey-for pesterin me to blog abt all i talk..
2.Sharan-for insiitin i start a blog to post my so called POEMS
3.Nith-for providin the spark to blog
4.everyone else who will b readin this blog in the future..
its been on my mind since a long time to start this blog thing..till date i believed in the age-old traditions of writin a diary to pour out all of my stuff ...but this is the hi-tech world..i felt weird cos almost all the people around me were bloggin..i didn wanna miss out on all the fun..so here i am...but it doesn mean i dont like writin..i still write my diary...anyways i am basically a lazy bum...i didn start this blog thing cos i thought i couldn update it regularly...but i thought otherwise n here i am..sorrry that the first post sux completely..im an amateur fer Christ's sake!!..anyways watch out ppl...vasanth is in town!!