I have been thinking a lot these days..[its a miracle that i even think :P ..lol]..Not about physics or chemistry..no..not circuits..about myself..what am i to the world....i was jus lookin at my college calender over the past one year..what the hell did i achieve comin to college??...lemme c..i did a paper presentation..went to a couple of quizzes..won some stupid competitions in college...ellarum panrathu thaan...then comin to the studyin part i did a bit..not to my full potential...[if i had did the "workin-to-my-full-potential" thingy i wouldn be in SREC...lol]..but i love my college..its like the perfect place for me...lookin on the socialising lessons i learnt...quite a lot..all the guys of my class are simply awesome..we are one BIG gang always together..one of my fren's dad passed away a couple of months ago..i remember everything that happened that day..
I was just going on a casual walk to the hostel..i went straight to susheel's room..he had been moody since morning..plus he didn attend 3rd and 4th hours..so i jus thought i would check on him....i entered his room and felt uneasy..i couldn find him...there couched in a corner..i was like "Enna da machan....??"..he turned up with tears in his eyes..then sampath told me.."susheel's dad passed away an hour ago"...My God..I stood their speechless..i was confused,irritated..confused cos i didn kno wat i could do to help the poor fella...irritated cos it was real unfair decision on him...he was cryin and he looked at me and said.."machan..enna da ippadi pannitaan!!"...i could see tears out of the corner of my eye..i controlled it and wiped em off...i tried to make him feel better..but what could i possibly say..i had no words..console..i tried that..but my heart went real heavy..i blamed god..cursed him rather..for this totally abrupt unfair situation...that afternoon i told my other class guys..all of em were there..each n every one to support him...stay by him at this sorta situation...i kept away..i was questionin myself.."why didn you cry?..you kno u feel bad??..but y didn you cry?.."..thinking such thoughts only made it worse..i actually thouhg ti was a bad person cos i didn cry..which i kno is utterly stupid..but i guess..what ever..then v all did our best to console him...all of the guys helped us to get tickets for susheel to go to hydrebad..and a very unforgettable name resounded in our ears...he was SATISH..he was doin MCA first year in our college...if it had not been for him,v couldn hav done nethin..he helped us wit money to get the tickets..he was there all the way..makin fone calls to travel agencies..blockin tickets..Vasanthan arranged for a call taxi...me,susheel,sampath and sathya went in the car along wit the DAS...Das was also very helpful..thanks to his mom,we got tickets on a certain airline..meanwhile karthi,vinod,sriram and sarvo had already taken bikes to search for tickets..finally we made sure he got the flight...i jus look back at the incident and i wonder at how great the class guys are..they are there for u whenever you need them...each n everyone..unhesistating n relentless...i SALUTE you all my frens...
Getting back to the questions in my head....i was wonderin if i was in anyway contaminated in the head for not cryin...i dunno..i felt very sad..i knew how tough it was for him..but i only wanted to share his sorrow..i so wanted to get the burden of his shoulders..these days i see him in class..v share a light moment..but i can see the sadness predominant at the corner of his eye..and i always make sure that he is fine and doin ok...i still pray to god everyday and i ask him one thing..only one "God,please let me not see somethin like this happen again.."...i kno my prayers are definitely gonna b answered..but lookin at this from a broader perspective..lookin at other people in the world who suffer and share the same sadness...i only hope i can have a word with all of them..my point is this:If you can show these people that you are always there for them,that ll be the major talking point in years to come..and if you rally mean it that alone is enough to stir some good will in their hearts..so my frens..dont think im givin you crap advice..Just see to that whenever you can,,make sure that people like susheel..people whom you may or may not know..people that need your attention..people who hide their sorrow..make sure that you do your part to make their lives a better peaceful one for them...
Thursday, April 26, 2007
Saturday, April 21, 2007
SONG
I am hopefully gonna learn guitar startin these sem holidays...i listen to loads of rock music..shrey i s my guru of course..plus i love to sing.i try loads of vocals of many songs..they suck of course...but if ever in the near future i learn to play tolerable guitar notes n a significant voice this ll b my first song,..
Could you please shut the door?
Can you lie down on the floor??
Its time we made some love,
With a lot of lust and hope..
Can you make this night at home,
A sparkling one for im alone...
You've made me yearn for the love,
Now its time you showed me how,
Can you turn me real insane??
Can you cry out loud and blame??
Cos i can feel the aura waitin,
To explode down to smitherins...
Wo ho ho...I feel all alone,
Break me down,with the might you hold,
Wo ho ho...I feel so strong,
So lets turn it on,but not for long...
Its only me and you tonight,
Please switch off the freakin lights,
Enough with all the fights,
Lets make love here tonight..
Could you please shut the door?
Can you lie down on the floor??
Its time we made some love,
With a lot of lust and hope..
Can you make this night at home,
A sparkling one for im alone...
You've made me yearn for the love,
Now its time you showed me how,
Can you turn me real insane??
Can you cry out loud and blame??
Cos i can feel the aura waitin,
To explode down to smitherins...
Wo ho ho...I feel all alone,
Break me down,with the might you hold,
Wo ho ho...I feel so strong,
So lets turn it on,but not for long...
Its only me and you tonight,
Please switch off the freakin lights,
Enough with all the fights,
Lets make love here tonight..
A ONE TO REMEMBER
These days just seem to take a lot of time,
The nights long and dark,nothing seems too fine,
Questions that keep coming back,and wake me up at night,
Reminds me of the face that i knew i missed alright..
A silent monster creeps inside my head,
Visions of an unspoken,unusual hate,
A wriggling yearn for the love of my mate,
Weighs down on my heart; its burden great..
I request the peace of my clouded mind,
But it never listens to all my cries,
It darts around in a seemingly fast pace,
Never has it seen such crooked mazes..
All i can think of is the reason for this state,
Cos never in my life had i felt this craze,
I wonder at the wonders of this ultimate sillyness,
Imagination reaches an unimaginable madness..
I relish the solitude,when the world is long gone,
It feels real great,i simply love the change,
I have tried real hard,yet is stay insane,
I just cant explain this super crazy game..
My hand trembles,rather wobbles when i hold the phone,
Her voice sends pleasure through my very soul,
This aint an exaggeration,just the fact,
Cos some might say..im a real wack!!...
I turn very silly and mumble like a kid,
I feel real good,in my right i should,
I still remember every word,every syllable,
Etched in my head,like a soothing miracle..
But now,i dunno why,someone's distracted,
And i feel bad,my gladness subtracted,
I hope i can put an end to this tremble,
Cos i jus cant lose her,even if there's a resemble..
For she has and will always stand by my side,
And so will i,till the end of my life,
For the gal who made my existence worth,
For the gal who made my life all important,
For the gal i have and will always treasure,
I only wait and hope for things to get better..
The nights long and dark,nothing seems too fine,
Questions that keep coming back,and wake me up at night,
Reminds me of the face that i knew i missed alright..
A silent monster creeps inside my head,
Visions of an unspoken,unusual hate,
A wriggling yearn for the love of my mate,
Weighs down on my heart; its burden great..
I request the peace of my clouded mind,
But it never listens to all my cries,
It darts around in a seemingly fast pace,
Never has it seen such crooked mazes..
All i can think of is the reason for this state,
Cos never in my life had i felt this craze,
I wonder at the wonders of this ultimate sillyness,
Imagination reaches an unimaginable madness..
I relish the solitude,when the world is long gone,
It feels real great,i simply love the change,
I have tried real hard,yet is stay insane,
I just cant explain this super crazy game..
My hand trembles,rather wobbles when i hold the phone,
Her voice sends pleasure through my very soul,
This aint an exaggeration,just the fact,
Cos some might say..im a real wack!!...
I turn very silly and mumble like a kid,
I feel real good,in my right i should,
I still remember every word,every syllable,
Etched in my head,like a soothing miracle..
But now,i dunno why,someone's distracted,
And i feel bad,my gladness subtracted,
I hope i can put an end to this tremble,
Cos i jus cant lose her,even if there's a resemble..
For she has and will always stand by my side,
And so will i,till the end of my life,
For the gal who made my existence worth,
For the gal who made my life all important,
For the gal i have and will always treasure,
I only wait and hope for things to get better..
POEM NO.5
OK..this is not all that crap..i was talkin to my friend janani over the phone the other day..she was tellin about the ppl around the world..y we are gifted...sounded real weird to me..but anyways she was tellin me abt the soldiers at LOC..abt their sacrifice and stuff..as i had nothin to do i was thinkin abt wat she said..and i saw a poem comin at the end of it..here goes nothin..
Guns and barrels,
Cries of pain,
Bloodshed ridden,
All over the place..
Succumbed to the enemy,
Scorched by gun powder,
Wounded corpses,
Of sargents and soldiers..
The battlefield drenched,
By the tears of love,
The doom of life,
Stays dormant,no deny..
Souls of the deceased,
Hover on the ground,
Searchin for a way,
For comfort in the grave..
Some look at hell,
A few look at heaven,
But none can quench,
The thirst of the demon..
With the red in his eyes,
He swoops on their lives,
No oil in the bath,
Only pain left to rot..
There you go..a poem which somewhat makes some kind of sense..thus the CRAP POETRY SERIES officially comes to an end....i thank u all for ur support..i'd love it if u screw each n every poem in this series..!![:p]
Guns and barrels,
Cries of pain,
Bloodshed ridden,
All over the place..
Succumbed to the enemy,
Scorched by gun powder,
Wounded corpses,
Of sargents and soldiers..
The battlefield drenched,
By the tears of love,
The doom of life,
Stays dormant,no deny..
Souls of the deceased,
Hover on the ground,
Searchin for a way,
For comfort in the grave..
Some look at hell,
A few look at heaven,
But none can quench,
The thirst of the demon..
With the red in his eyes,
He swoops on their lives,
No oil in the bath,
Only pain left to rot..
There you go..a poem which somewhat makes some kind of sense..thus the CRAP POETRY SERIES officially comes to an end....i thank u all for ur support..i'd love it if u screw each n every poem in this series..!![:p]
POEM NO.4
Solid Fluid Mechanics aka SFM....soora kadi....its actually a bit ok..i mean the answers calculator parts r kinda eeze..but the subject is basically TOTAL CRAP...so i usually sit at the back..our sir is simply phenomenal..[did i get the spellin rite?? :O..lolz..]...he tries real hard..but after a certain limit its TERRIBLE...so this is the latest addition to the crap poetry series..
Very many days,
Vehement protests,
Crooked visions,
Rooted to your head,
Sprinkled sadness,
Enveloped by madness,
Crude to thy heart,
All that is lost,
Sentiments,sensations,
Slumbered in silence,
The spine lays dead,
At the feet of hell,
My mind is 'maniac'-ed,
Its pace dead slow,
Nephrons jus explode,
Loosened confusion,
Completely mistaken,
Perplexed perxeption,
Of death in excitation,
My grip on life,
Now a brutal lie,
My life,a lie,
All day,all night..
Thoughts unfulfilled,
Supremely blunt,
The depth of black,
Infinite at the bank,
Emotions inscrutable,
Sorrow unstoppable,
Even sleep,sorrow-struck,
Nightmares beserk,
The cry of guilt,
From far within,
Mourning Martha,
Bangs on the door,
Evolves the satan,
All on the floor,
Kill me all at once,
I cant stand this trance,
Weakened,weathered,
Wasted and hurt,
My life,a lie,
All day,all night...
i wouldn mind if u crack up after readin this..i think it is especially funny..ill quote some of my own "sillyness"..lol!!..i tried to make the poem seem very serious;so instead of actually concentratin on the topic n purpose i rather gave a damn to the words n voca..and i ended up wit some utter BULL SHIT..i still hav no clue as to y i used MOURNING MARTHA..seemed totally illogical..but thats me..n my TRADEMARK CRAP POETRY!!..he he..excuse my cranky attitude..
Very many days,
Vehement protests,
Crooked visions,
Rooted to your head,
Sprinkled sadness,
Enveloped by madness,
Crude to thy heart,
All that is lost,
Sentiments,sensations,
Slumbered in silence,
The spine lays dead,
At the feet of hell,
My mind is 'maniac'-ed,
Its pace dead slow,
Nephrons jus explode,
Loosened confusion,
Completely mistaken,
Perplexed perxeption,
Of death in excitation,
My grip on life,
Now a brutal lie,
My life,a lie,
All day,all night..
Thoughts unfulfilled,
Supremely blunt,
The depth of black,
Infinite at the bank,
Emotions inscrutable,
Sorrow unstoppable,
Even sleep,sorrow-struck,
Nightmares beserk,
The cry of guilt,
From far within,
Mourning Martha,
Bangs on the door,
Evolves the satan,
All on the floor,
Kill me all at once,
I cant stand this trance,
Weakened,weathered,
Wasted and hurt,
My life,a lie,
All day,all night...
i wouldn mind if u crack up after readin this..i think it is especially funny..ill quote some of my own "sillyness"..lol!!..i tried to make the poem seem very serious;so instead of actually concentratin on the topic n purpose i rather gave a damn to the words n voca..and i ended up wit some utter BULL SHIT..i still hav no clue as to y i used MOURNING MARTHA..seemed totally illogical..but thats me..n my TRADEMARK CRAP POETRY!!..he he..excuse my cranky attitude..
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
POEM NO.3
This one struck me..i mean the idea struck me 0n annual day..there were these competitions going on..i came to college on the morning..the guys were doin their usual rouse..someone was tellin their was a poetry competition around..the guys said "Dai Peter..poi english puluthu.."..so i decided to give it a shot..but i wanted to do a small rehearsal before the actual thing..so here goes nothing:
When everything seemed picture-perfect,
Everyone happy,everything nice,
With a sceptre under the arm,
And a smirk on his tongue,
The force of dark insanity,
Fogs the bloody harmony,
And as time flies by,
You can only sit and wonder why,
Why all the jinxes and the plots,
Comes down on your head to rot,
When the perfect balance is struck,
A disaster looms at the brink,
No shape,no size all evil,never nice,
A sharp twinge at the corner of your eye,
You turn around with a worried frown,
You see black but you know you're not alone,
You are scared to the core,
Your head it about to explode,
Purposes that had never been satisfied,
I still cant find the answers to my life,
The perception of truth seems wholly mute,
Question marks crowd in my head,
The answers...I just cant seem to get..
eppadi !!
When everything seemed picture-perfect,
Everyone happy,everything nice,
With a sceptre under the arm,
And a smirk on his tongue,
The force of dark insanity,
Fogs the bloody harmony,
And as time flies by,
You can only sit and wonder why,
Why all the jinxes and the plots,
Comes down on your head to rot,
When the perfect balance is struck,
A disaster looms at the brink,
No shape,no size all evil,never nice,
A sharp twinge at the corner of your eye,
You turn around with a worried frown,
You see black but you know you're not alone,
You are scared to the core,
Your head it about to explode,
Purposes that had never been satisfied,
I still cant find the answers to my life,
The perception of truth seems wholly mute,
Question marks crowd in my head,
The answers...I just cant seem to get..
eppadi !!
POEM NO.2
ok...i dont remember exactly when i worte this..so here goes the CRAP POETRY SERIES:
My eyes have gone blood red,
Seeing what she did to me,
Her thoughts run in my head,
And anger surges like hell..
My heart now feels so empty,
Cos she broke it all away,
For all i did t make her happy,
She crushed it all away...
The one big question in my head,
The one that makes me feel so dead,
The one that makes me cry out loud,
The one that proves the reminiscent truth...
Why the world has shown no mercy to me??
Why the hell does she hate me for what I'll be??
Why the fuck do i cry for this rot tragedy??
Why the hell do i have to be a slave to thee??
To kill all the pain,
To keep my mind all sane,
To quench all the hate,
I shout all mucked up thoughts and blame...
"I hate you to the core,
Im tired of being down and low,
I wanna break this sad galore,
And make amends for all the false hope.."
"I wanna live my life all new,
I dont wanna live in the past and puke,
I've had enough with all your jokes,
So i say...Sayanorra bitchy you.."
"Sayanorra to all the insanity,
Sayanorra to all the trust and love,
Sayanorra to days of confused fate,
Sayanorra to my big mistake..."
So the consequences part...not too interestin i guess..i was jus pissed wit one of the gals in ma class..i was listenin to SHE FUCKIN HATES ME by Puddle of mudd(macho macho song!!)..so on the lines of that song,i wrote one on my own versions of it..but the word 'reminiscent' is so outta place dont you think..[:P]
My eyes have gone blood red,
Seeing what she did to me,
Her thoughts run in my head,
And anger surges like hell..
My heart now feels so empty,
Cos she broke it all away,
For all i did t make her happy,
She crushed it all away...
The one big question in my head,
The one that makes me feel so dead,
The one that makes me cry out loud,
The one that proves the reminiscent truth...
Why the world has shown no mercy to me??
Why the hell does she hate me for what I'll be??
Why the fuck do i cry for this rot tragedy??
Why the hell do i have to be a slave to thee??
To kill all the pain,
To keep my mind all sane,
To quench all the hate,
I shout all mucked up thoughts and blame...
"I hate you to the core,
Im tired of being down and low,
I wanna break this sad galore,
And make amends for all the false hope.."
"I wanna live my life all new,
I dont wanna live in the past and puke,
I've had enough with all your jokes,
So i say...Sayanorra bitchy you.."
"Sayanorra to all the insanity,
Sayanorra to all the trust and love,
Sayanorra to days of confused fate,
Sayanorra to my big mistake..."
So the consequences part...not too interestin i guess..i was jus pissed wit one of the gals in ma class..i was listenin to SHE FUCKIN HATES ME by Puddle of mudd(macho macho song!!)..so on the lines of that song,i wrote one on my own versions of it..but the word 'reminiscent' is so outta place dont you think..[:P]
POEM NO.1
ok...its been a real long time since i blogged...so wanted to start wit some kadi!!..ok mostly i stay jobless in col..evalo neramthaan sight adikirathu...[:o]...so i get bored now n then..henceforth i decide to write shit poetry mathiri stuff jus to spend time n squeeze my otherwise shitty head..this is the crap poetry series..i begin thus:
Deep in the woods,
I lay at mercy,
Plagued by the winds,
Of death and insanity,
Cold and dark,
This place is rot,
The scars make a mark,
Its presence felt hot,
The woods are bad,
The skulls dont relax,
They are out for their prey,
Fear is on its way,
Beware o Mighty,
For your strength aint pure,
He will hold you by the neck,
The demon is at work,
You try like a bear,
All you do is stand and swear,
But beware o Mighty,
He is real freekin creepy!!
OK..i kno the poem or wateva it is sucks..but the consequences which led to this are unforgettable..it was friday 3rd hour..computer programming lab..miss asked us to execute some C programs..i did it real fast n was sittin bored..then a friend of mine,Shanmuga asked me to check out a folder on his system..i went n saw pics of cool bikes..n after 2 or 3 pics super hot models posed near the bikes..my jaw dropped and drool started to wet my shirt..i was enjoyin it..but then a slap on the back...miss was starin straight at me..she was so angry..manamae pochu!...but namakku athellam matter ae illai!!..so i was pissed wit myself for this piece of shit act..i was lookin at the pc and i saw a pic of this haunted woods thingy..odanae my poetry overflow aaramichirchu!!..kalakkaren lai!! :P..lolz..but even i started laughin my ass off when i wrote the "BEWARE O MIGHTY" line..i was laughin ma ass off!!!
Deep in the woods,
I lay at mercy,
Plagued by the winds,
Of death and insanity,
Cold and dark,
This place is rot,
The scars make a mark,
Its presence felt hot,
The woods are bad,
The skulls dont relax,
They are out for their prey,
Fear is on its way,
Beware o Mighty,
For your strength aint pure,
He will hold you by the neck,
The demon is at work,
You try like a bear,
All you do is stand and swear,
But beware o Mighty,
He is real freekin creepy!!
OK..i kno the poem or wateva it is sucks..but the consequences which led to this are unforgettable..it was friday 3rd hour..computer programming lab..miss asked us to execute some C programs..i did it real fast n was sittin bored..then a friend of mine,Shanmuga asked me to check out a folder on his system..i went n saw pics of cool bikes..n after 2 or 3 pics super hot models posed near the bikes..my jaw dropped and drool started to wet my shirt..i was enjoyin it..but then a slap on the back...miss was starin straight at me..she was so angry..manamae pochu!...but namakku athellam matter ae illai!!..so i was pissed wit myself for this piece of shit act..i was lookin at the pc and i saw a pic of this haunted woods thingy..odanae my poetry overflow aaramichirchu!!..kalakkaren lai!! :P..lolz..but even i started laughin my ass off when i wrote the "BEWARE O MIGHTY" line..i was laughin ma ass off!!!
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